Live Well, Love Much, Laugh Often: Comeback!

Finally our 11 weeks of school for semester one is finally over! But the bad thing is, i don't feel this 7 weeks holiday ahead of me at all! I HAVE NO IDEA WHY OMG. Then the thoughts of me graduating is scary. I don't have plans for myself at the moment and i don't want to leave school, my comfort zone for 3 years. The fear of going to a new school, making new friends haunts me and of course, in life there's always dramas no matter where you are. And i don't like the idea of being part of it sigh but there's no such things as no one hates you, always will have that somebody not happy of what you're doing one. And there's no such person that has no enemies. Trust me. No one lol..

HOLIDAYS. 7 weeks. For the first time in my whole life, i felt sad having this 7 weeks holiday? is it because of the boy i can't see for these 7 weeks? i dunno, and i also feel that if i stop doing FYP now i will return to school in sem 2 totally clueless and lazy, i need to keep up with this pace you know. Hope that i can go on a vacation somewhere, anywhereeee. Nah, so not feeling it. Not gonna find part time job, just gonna continue doing my FYP and that darn NDP project which i dont feel like doing at all.

Mid crit and final crit passed well, received good comments, way too good then i expected. I myself am shock and my lecturers kept telling me that i took a super huge leap from the year 2 shugee who don't appear at school to the year 3 shugee who comes to school everyday and is always doing something useful for FYP. Part of me happy, part of me feels like im becoming a nerd with no life lol, But nonetheless, FYP is currently the most important thing to me right now. Without a good grade i can't go anywhere.

Mood, unbalance, recently keep got this moody feel in me which i dont experience much. Most people see me as a happy go lucky girl but i got feeling one ok not everyday i can be so happy. But just recently i feel more moody then last time. dunno whether to be happy or angry or sad. Should i take the initiative? Yes and no? I'm afraid of rejection and then it'll be damn awkward. ok you dunno what i'm talking about LOL even my FYP project is about when you are inside you feel like you're outside. When you're outside you feel that you're inside. so insideoutsideception.

AIYA BAD THINGS ASIDE, finally met up with insane kids after not meeting for 1@$!#%!$!#!@#!%! long time. Had a great chat, a great one indeed, filled our stomach with javier, we took too much, watched imperfect, chat, shop, chat non stop! it's always fun with them and they're people where i can share my emotions and everything too. I hope they feel the same way also but then until now i have not yet exposed my whole self to them la hope next time when i more confident i can do it. And i hope i dont lose this bunch of friends whom i know for like 7 years. Of course my poly friends too they're a diamond in my heart hahaha all of you hold a place in my heart ok!